New Year

it is almost the end of 2009 now....
new year...as i said...really will hav a big change...
the time of 11.29p.m., the end of conversation...
and it is the end of everything....

wat u said mayb is rite,
new year....shud hav new life....
the end might b a better decision for us....

i think...i'll b stronger....
it's all my fault to make u suffer....
it's all my wrong to start everything....

if tat is better for u, i think i shud let go...
few days b4 i've seen another pair to break...
the guy really crazy...
i think i shudn't b like him...

so...b strong Jordan Pang Chee Keong....
b tough...u can make it ok???
since other ppl can stand up..y cant u??

goodbye, 2009...
goodbye, my love....

The Last Day of 2009

it will be the last day of this year...
time just gone so fast....
just like shin pey said,
i oso feel like tis year passed faster than others...
mayb tis year having alot of things to do,
until dun hav much time to b free....

this year,
so much of unexpected things just happened...
happy, sad, angry, disappointed, excited....
all of the feeling have fill me up wif a year like riding roller coaster...

dunno whether it will b same in year 2010 onot...
but i'm sure there will b a huge change in my life...
as i'm goin to graduate (maybe)...
wat is the future plan???
i'll said tat...i really dunno....
things happened has really make me cant breath...
i dun hav energy to think bout the future anymore...
i just hope i dun hav one...then i wont have so much of troubles and stress....

Goodbye, 2009...
Goodbye, myself...

遗憾

别再说是谁的错
让一切成灰
除非放下心中的负累
一切难以挽回
你总爱让往事跟随
怕过去白费
你总以为要体会人生
就要多爱几回

与其让你在我怀中枯萎
宁愿你犯错后悔
让你飞向梦中的世界
留我独自伤悲
与其让你在我爱中憔悴
宁愿你受伤流泪
我非要你尝尽了苦悲
才懂真情可贵

别再说是谁的错
让一切成灰
除非放下心中的负累
一切难以挽回
你总爱让往事跟随
怕过去白费
你总以为要体会人生
就要多爱几回
与其让你在我怀中枯萎
宁愿你犯错后悔
让你飞向梦中的世界
留我独自伤悲
与其让你在我爱中憔悴
宁愿你受伤流泪
我非要你尝尽了苦悲
才懂真情可贵
我非要你尝尽了苦悲
才懂真情可贵

Stress~~~~~!!!!!!!!

long time din update blog~~since when i've been so busy bout thesis...

haiz...our thesis has gone thru so many obstacle, changing, changing and changing...
but at the end still cant meet supervisor's needs...so shit~~~

mayb our ability is not so well....but the supervisor really shit till~~~
keep on changing his mind....WTH....
the due date is getting nearer to us...it is so stress for us to do those thing...

izit supervisors are responsible to torture students??? XXXX~~~!!!!!

besides, final is coming....so stress....
din really attending all the class....not so sure i can make it for the exam onot....so scare~~~any1 help?? T_T

well, SM lecturer - Mr. Right really annoying me tat makes me dun wan to go his class....keep on "rite, rite, rite" in every sentence...i dun really understand wat he is talking about....y utar have such a lecturer??? really so cheap, low quality...

haiz~~~
i hope i can make it for final exam...i only wish to pass...not much else...
and thesis, hope v can finish it in time and have a good result....

GOD, please, bless me~~~!!!

我不配

这街上太拥挤 太多人有秘密
玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪 在还原那场雨
这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里
这日子不再绿 又斑驳了几句
剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
电影院的座椅 隔遥远的距离
感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋
还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于
描述我如何爱你
你却微笑地离我而去
这感觉 已经不对
我努力在挽回
一些些 应该体贴的感觉 我没给
你嘟嘴 许的愿望很卑微 在妥协
是我忽略 你不过要人陪
这感觉 已经不对
我最后才了解
一页页 不忍翻阅的情节 你好累
你默背 为我掉过几次泪 多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪
你的美 我不配

Sick Jor

since last last week friday after the visit of Kajang Jail,my body has ran into the red alert...

on that day, during the jail visit, i was faint and feeling not well...on the bus i even feel like wanted to vomit....but i still able to hold on....but after v've reach skul, i cant make it anymore, and quickly go to .... house to rest...

.... said that i've fever...then after that i jz rest at the place till 6-7pm something only go home wif a faint condition...luckily i din meet any accident...

after the day i've been feeling not well very often...faint, fever, leg pain, headache, stomach pain, even right now i'm feeling sick too....

wat had happened on me??i think my software and hardware are starting to break down one by one....
i need good rest....i need a lot...
but wif the assignment and thesis, i cant rest for now...i dun hav anytime to rest...i'm so sick~~~~~~~!!!!!!

i hope i will b fine asap....i dun wan to stay in this condition anymore....it's torturing me~~!!!

Journey to Intimacy

"Journey to Intimacy"

it was one of the counselling class, or can be said as workshop, that lead by our lovely counsellors, Ms. Jessica and Ms. Loh...

what is it all about??? it is mainly about the relationship between human, and the way to keep a good relationship...

since it has been mentioned by them, i've ady the intention and interest to join...but there are so many things to do and there was one moment i have a thought in my mind to give it up....
but at the end, i'm still one of the classmate...will any1 think tat i'm so disturbing??? lolz....
since i'm the only guy who joined...somehow i gotta feeling...weird feeling...
izit male also dun hav tis kind of interest??? it is interesting wat??

i've no regret to join tis class...although only 2 class v've been gone thru...
but wat i get is really meaningful and helpful for me...

i started to understand some of the simple way to make a better relationship as well as maintaining it...well, i might not really can do it...but more or less it will definitely helped me in tis matter....


i'm looking forward for the next 13 class with excited,
i hope wat i learned i'll make it....


it's time to say goodnite...
nite nite people live in the Earth....

Brainless!!!

this world really so mmany types of ppl...

one of the types i hate the most...
is those tot himself/herself is telling jokes but dunno is hurting ppl...
so stupid so shit and so idiot....

when speak the mouth and word nvr run thru the brain to think wat is suitable to say 1st de meh??? think urself is so entertaining?? u r oni an idiot..!!!

do u hav brain inside the head??putting inside ur head y dun u use it??
or i think u all dun hav brain 1 lo...do everything din think b4 do...so stupid...
damn shit~~~!!!

u all this kind of ppl dun die living on earth is jz wasting the resources...!!!

有些事，一转身就是一辈子

This is a post originated from a fren - 阿杯_面




quite meaningful....

have u faced those b4??

烦

放假了，应该是要relax的，可以不用烦课业的事。
很可惜的是，却一直没有relax到。
心里一直好像有很多事要烦，一直安静不下来。
thesis, 那个supervisor又不懂要怎样联络，我们又不懂要做些什么，到底会不会赶得及呢？好烦啊。。。

当然还有很多其他事要烦，心很不安。
一直想着未来，到底会怎样，很乱，很烦。。。